Another Year Older

One day shortly before Christmas I got in the elevator at my job and in that weirdly lit mirrored space, I noticed something unusual sprouting out of the front of my hairline. I looked at myself closely in one of the mirrored walls. ‘Is that…a grey hair…?’ It was kind of hard to tell. After years of dying my hair different shades of copper, I’d dyed it brown in the fall with the aim letting my light brown/dark blonde hair grow in and not dying it anymore (or at the very least, not for a very long time). But my natural shade is cool toned and I had mistaken strands of my roots for grey in the past, so I wasn’t sure if this was an early morning hallucination or the real deal. I didn’t dwell on it too much.

But one morning a few weeks later when I stood back up after leaning over the sink to wash my face the bathroom light hit my hair a certain way and there was no mistaking it — I had a grey hair. I often hear my coworkers complaining about their grey hairs, but I felt an odd little spark of excitement. It felt like a weird validation and proof of the struggles I’ve experienced.

Plus, I was kind of hoping to develop a cool grey streak like Claire Saffitz from Bon Appetit! (If her streak is somehow not real, please do not burst my bubble, lol.)

My single grey hair showed up at quite a timely point as well, just before my 28th birthday at the end of January. Some people might feel quite bad about getting close to 30 and in some senses I do, but mainly just because I don’t feel like I’m as far along in my so-called adult life as I think I should be. (For instance, if this is your first time here, I still live with my mom.) As far as the actual process of my body aging, who gives a damn?

This year my birthday lasted for basically a whole week! The party was kicked off the Sunday before with a little gathering with my friends. We had pizza and cake and watched the bluray I bought a while ago of the Takarazuka Revue’s most recent production of the musical Elisabeth, which is based on the life of an Austrian empress popularly known as Sisi. It’s in Japanese with no English subtitles, but I know Sisi’s real life history and found translations of the songs so I was able to explain what was happening as we went along. It honestly felt like the most selfish, self indulgent thing I had ever asked from my friends (“for my birthday I want you to listen to me talk about history and this weird musical for 2.5 hours”). But my friends said they enjoyed it so that made me feel better! I wish I could post a clip, but Takarazuka have mysteriously taken all the promo clips for it down from their YouTube channel unfortunately. 

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Friendly’s grocery store ice cream cake is required birthday food, even in the dead of winter, true story!

My family’s tradition is to stick three candles in birthday cakes, so I was surprised when my friend put in eight (because I’m 28). The HAP on the cake is partly a “the cake was too small to write much” joke and also an inside joke based on our school district’s name for its Gifted and Talented program, which most of us were in back in the day. (Aka: most of us have some kind of self-esteem issue because of it, lol.)

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My cubicle is right next to this little snack area. Please do not ask how many doughnuts I ate on this day.

My birthday continued into my work week. My office has six people born in January so the other secretaries decided to combine mine with someone born the previous week — they set it on Monday to kind of split the difference between me and the other birthday person. Whenever it’s someone’s birthday people bring in snacks to share, and we had a pretty nice spread! It’s Valentine’s season, so the the doughnuts were heart shaped, which I thought was really cute!

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My office is a fan of Bavarian creme doughnuts if you can’t tell from the fact that four are in this box (and I think there were even more before I snapped this).

My coworkers jokingly wished me happy birthday until my actual birthday rolled around on Thursday. And our newest secretary gave me a little gift!  No one’s ever given me a gift for my birthday at work before. She only started at the beginning of January and we really don’t know each other well yet, so this little angel coin was a sweet surprise. I’m not really religious, but I can appreciate the vibe of something like this.

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Thursday was my actual birthday. Often in the past my family winds up having pizza or something at home on the person’s actual birthday and then all the same people go out to dinner on Friday evening. But this year I told my mom I didn’t want that. I said that we only needed to celebrate my birthday once, because it would be back to back and also because it just makes me feel a little weird to be the center of prolonged attention. Maybe it’s a middle child thing? So anyway, I didn’t expect much of anything on my actual birthday, but my mom made macaroni and cheese and a cherry crumble and it was very nice.

Also on my birthday my goods from inki-drop’s Starwhal Kickstarter unexpectedly arrived! It was kind of like a gift from the universe. Everything is very cute, and the soft things (Mama Starwhal and the pouch) are exceptionally soft! I’ve already incorporated the pins into my pin frames!

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This is a pouch that a whole PS Vita can fit inside!

So then on Friday, to wrap up my birthday week, we went out to our favorite local Italian restaurant. My aunt stopped by our house beforehand and lemme tell ya, she is the queen of birthday cards. She always finds the loudest, most hilarious ones. 

She also gives scratchcards to everyone on their birthdays and on my birthday last year I became the family record holder, winning $40. This year all I got was a new ticket.

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I have a funny story from dinner that I already shared on my Twitter, but I want to immortalize it here as well. The restaurant was having two parties that night, so they put us in this upstairs room that allows them to do regular dinner service for people when they’re also having multiple parties. We had just ordered and were chatting when suddenly from downstairs came the sound of bagpipes! It only lasted about a minute and stopped as abruptly as it had started. My family naturally burst into laughter and started joking about how they should have the piper come up and play me happy birthday! We asked our waitress what was happening and it turned out it was a police officer’s retirement party. Regardless, it’s a birthday memory that I’m unlikely to forget, lol!

I was lucky to receive some neat gifts from my friends and family (tabletop games! a Dragon Age lore book! a cute reusable shopping bag, Pusheen magnets, and a book about pins! and more!). I’d like to close this post off by sharing a just one gift photo — I present to you, a ceramic Harry Potter goblet!

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One might jokingly refer to this as a pimp cup, lol. This was a find of my aunt’s. I could probably use it for drinking, but I’m too afraid to break it. The dragon makes displaying anything inside of it kind of awkward. I tried to put a small Ron plush I have inside and it just didn’t work. But in the alternate universe where I make enough money to move out on my own, I think this could be good for placing next to the door so I can put my keys in it! For now, I’m displaying it on top of my dresser.

And that’s all I have to say about my birthday week!

I hope you’re all doing well. I’ll be back with another post soon!

Pin Display Project

I like decorative pins — artists all over the internet are making really great designs! But I always worry that if I attach them to a jacket or bag they’ll fall off and I’ll lose them forever. If you saw my Desk Tour post, then you’ll know I found a solution for that! It was very simple — nothing more than an embroidery hoop and a piece of cloth.

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I don’t know the artists for all of these, but I’ll have links to all the pins I do know at the end of this post!

However, this first attempt was far from perfect. I cut the fabric quite short around the back so it wouldn’t show at the front, but I don’t own a hot glue gun, so it wasn’t terribly secure. Adding or removing pins would cause the fabric to shift or lose tension. I do have a friend with a hot glue gun and I always meant to fix this up, and also make more hoops, but I kept forgetting. Until recently!

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Awhile ago I got two new hoops at a craft chain called Michaels (the little one and the biggest one). The fabric I picked up at Walmart. The label on each bit of fabric (the colors were sold separately) said they were “fat quarters” which makes me giggle for some reason. Apart from a hot glue gun, to make these you’ll also need some nice sharp scissors and maybe some string depending on how you plan on hanging them. And also some kind of flat piece to press the fabric into the hot glue — I used a disposable chopstick for this.

I don’t have any progress pictures because I needed both hands to work on these and I didn’t want to ask my friend to stop playing Dragon Age, because it is a very important game that we both love, lol. But here are the steps of my process:

  • Load the fabric in between the two parts of the hoop and tighten the screw at the top so the fabric is taut.
  • Cut the fabric short until it is close to the hoop, but still long enough to tuck around inside. (You could also measure the fabric around the hoop and cut it before putting the fabric in, but I couldn’t be bothered.)
  • Apply hot glue to the hoop, going little by little, and press the fabric into it somehow (fingers are not recommended for obvious reasons).
  • Optional: loop a string around the screw at the top to help you hang it. I discovered when I was taking photos for this post that my hoops will fit over my hook of choice without string, which I didn’t realize with my first hoop. (For the record, I’m obsessed with all things Command Strips/Hooks for hanging things in my room.)
  • Ta-da! You’re done!

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To be honest, my hoops are kind of a mess inside. I didn’t cut the fabric very carefully — I probably could have cut it closer so it would lay flatter.

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This excess fabric/my sloppy mess is super visible in the yellow hoop (which formerly held the gray fabric, hence the string). On the darker colors this doesn’t show much or at all. So maybe I wouldn’t recommend light colors for this if you’re not prepared to be super precise, but the fabric I bought is also cheap/thin so if you had thicker cloth you might also be able to get away with a light color. My friend suggested getting some nice beads and gluing them around the edge so you can’t see the ugliness.

My only other regret with this project is that I didn’t take better care lining up the creases in the fabric. (Because, let’s be honest, who is going to iron the fabric for a little project like this?) If I make more of these, I’ll do a better job at lining the creases up horizontally or vertically, because looking at the crooked creases kind of irritates me. But again, this is something that shows less on darker fabric.

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I haven’t entirely decided which pins of mine are going on which hoop, but I know I want to bring the little one to my cubicle at work. The big polka dot one will hang in my room, and I can expand to the yellow one once I fix it up/need more pin space.

I’m very excited to collect more pins now! Are there any artists you recommend? And if you have any questions about this project, please let me know.

Pins Featured In This Post (That I Know The Source Of):

 

Once upon a time…

Once upon a time there was a female who felt herself to be (in the words of the immortal Ms. Spears) not a girl, not yet a woman. After all, on the cusp of 28 years old she was well past her girlhood and probably didn’t even qualify as a young woman anymore. But for a number of reasons she could not escape her family home and live a life with full adult responsibilities and therefore often felt like a child. (Although, for the record, she was very thankful that her family home was a pleasant place to live. Just wanna put that out there.)

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Additionally, there were aspects of her personality that occasionally made her feel childish. For instance, she would much rather stay in and play a video game than go out into the world and make connections that could perhaps advance her adult life. She had no long term goals besides “be happy and be able to support myself” which really was getting in the way of finding a job that would help her achieve those goals, as she had no firm direction to point herself in. When she reached her point of ultimate frustration, her body’s reaction was to cry (and then to cry more out of embarrassment for having cried).

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However, her greatest problem was that she had very little discipline. This can be traced back to her years in college. After spending high school driving herself crazy to get good grades in her full course load of high level classes, she very quickly noticed that she had enrolled in a college that was perhaps slightly too easy for her. She realized that she could do the bare minimum and still get good grades, and so that is what she did (while somehow still managing to graduate a semester early). By the time she left the mountains to return home to the land of Jersey, her discipline had fluttered away on a breeze.

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She turned her attention to various endeavors as she started her adult life, but she had lost her ability to follow through when it was not required by an employer. She took up the ukulele and wrote a handful of songs that were well received by people she knew, but when her inspiration fled, so to did her relationship with her ukulele. She bought a beautiful blue guitar and attended lessons, but when her teacher left the community center she let the guitar sit in the corner because there was no outside force compelling her to practice. There was a watercolor kit that she’d purchased after watching a few videos that had been barely touched. She couldn’t get herself to stick to an exercise regimen even though her overweight body begged her to by developing hypertension. There was a box of video games in her room that had been started, but never finished.

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Then there was the whole slew of internet videos, over 100 of them, made over the course of many years. YouTube was her most successful attempt at keeping up with a hobby long term. She occasionally took breaks for months at a time, but always returned. Until one day it hit her that she did not want to go back. There wasn’t any particular reason, she just somehow lost interest in creating online videos (although she did still spend an inordinate amount of time watching online videos instead of doing any of the things mentioned in the last two paragraphs).

If she was being really honest with herself, in most of the things she tried she grew to feel she was hopelessly mediocre and would never be good or worth notice no matter how much effort she put in, so why should she even bother?

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But just because she had given up on talking to a camera did not mean that she never wanted to talk to anyone about her more long-winded thoughts on the internet ever again. The internet can give the impression that we are meant to share everything about our lives, and while she knew that many aspects of her life were probably too dull to share, she still wanted to share some things. So she started a blog. She could have kept a physical journal, but the notion that someone might read her words and interact with her because of them excited her. She had made some quality internet friends on YouTube and thought that once she got going she might make some blogging friends as well.

She plugged away at her blog, dedicating time to make sure there would be a new post each week. While she didn’t make any new friends, she did feel herself to be free to talk about topics that she never felt alright talking about on YouTube. She finally unburdened herself regarding a few heavy stories from her life and was more open and raw about her mental health than she’d ever been before. She had friends and family to talk about these things with, but she could be clearer and take her time composing her thoughts. Somehow it was easier to write everything down instead of having to use her actual voice. It was freeing.

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But then, the inevitable happened. After taking a week off to go on a trip, her posting became more irregular and ultimately ceased entirely. Her main excuse at the time that she stopped was “it’s too hot to sit at my laptop for hours during the summer to put these posts together” and she swore she’d return in the fall. But autumn came and went and winter began and still she had not really posted anything, besides a post saying that she would be posting again soon that had actually been posted quite some time ago.

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The blog tugged at the back of her mind, but she was nervous about returning. She realized that was scared that she had nothing new left to say after all of the YouTube videos and blog posts she had already made. Nothing interesting anyway. But she wanted to write. So just after the new year started she put Google Docs on her phone so she could work on the same documents both at her desk and away from it and she started typing away. She wasn’t sure if it was any good, or if she would even be consistent about it, but she very badly wanted to be. She wanted to prove to herself that she could follow through, even if she felt like a worthless mediocrity while doing it.

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It was a new year, a new start, a new chance to do and be better. Hopefully this time something would stick.

[All images are from my collection of photos/YouTube thumbnails that I’ve taken over the years.]

Blog-a-versary!

Hello, all! It’s been a loooong while, hasn’t it?

If you thought I had given up on this blog, you thought wrong. It’s just that this summer has been A Time. By the end of it, I was referring to it as a cursed summer, because it seemed like less than ideal things were happening not only to me, but to everyone around me.

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Pictures in this post are all from a walk in a wooded place in my area last fall that I never used for anything!

For instance, just as I was beginning to feel confident in my new position, I had to cover our calendar for a week because of a near death in someone’s family, which always puts me in a bad headspace. (Why are people so fucking rude??)

My doctor put me on a low dose of a diuretic at the end of July because my blood pressure finally went from borderline bad to actually bad. Needless to say this made me feel like shit mentally, but I didn’t have time to worry about that because the day after that appointment, one of my close friends experienced a major medical emergency.

Thankfully they survived it, and while they could’ve suffered major losses of mental or bodily function, they did not. They were home by the end of August, but that month was full of a lot of hospital visits and anxiety and trying to take my mind off of that anxiety by driving through the desert in GTA Online. (My friend is doing relatively well most days now, although they still have a lot of healing to do at home.)

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A relatively minor gripe, all things considered, is that we had kind of crummy weather on a lot of the weekends, so I couldn’t get down the shore at all.

However, the biggest thing that always keeps me away from computers after work in the summer is the heat. Even in my YouTube days, I was always less active in the summer. I’ve spent the past two summers getting by with just a big fan in my room, without putting an air conditioner into the window. The only thing I want to do when I get home on a hot summer day is sit myself right in front of the fan doing something that requires minimal energy (like reading or, again, video games) until it is time to flop my whole body down in front of the fan so I can go to sleep. The cord for the fan isn’t long enough to reach that close to my desk, and if I plug another thing into the ancient powerstrip at my feet, I’m sure it will catch on fire, lol. As a result of all of that, sitting at my desk is too sweaty to tolerate during the summer.

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But! Now that the weather is cooling down and life is becoming calm, I am ready to make my return. I’m not ready for a full return just yet — I want to prep at least two blog posts first, to give me a head start on a regular schedule. You can look forward to posts about Flame Con! The New York Renaissance Faire! Portland, Maine! And much more!

However, I noticed that my first blog-a-versary just passed, so I wanted to throw up a quick post to say hey, let y’all know why I dropped off the map, and to thank you if you’re still willing to read my stuff after I disappeared without warning.

Throughout my life I’ve tried to keep many different diaries, and then blogs once the internet came along. I always lost interest in them very shortly, but I’m somehow still interested in writing here after a whole year has passed, and I intend to keep on doing so for quite awhile.

See you soon (for real!),
Krys

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My Makeup Routine!

I didn’t really get into makeup until 2014, but I was never the type to wear it daily. It just really requires way too much effort and time — I’d rather get a little more sleep before work! However, there was a period of time where I was putting on a full face of makeup every Saturday. This was mainly during the time when I was really into making YouTube videos, as that was my filming day and I wanted to look polished. However, in 2018, while I’ve swiped on just a bit of lipstick here or there, I’ve really only done a full makeup three or four times. Two of those times were at Anime Boston, and one of them was for the cosplay I did there.

But it struck me lately, that I’ve had the same profile picture on several of my social media outlets for nearly a year now, and I figured if I was going to haul out my nice camera to take replacements, I might as well try to look decent for it, lol. So last weekend I put on a ton of makeup, and documented each step. I’ll be the first to say that I’m not the greatest at makeup application, but I have fun with it, and that’s what counts! For starters, here is my bare face, clean and layered with skincare — the Before picture, if you will.

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There is a whole range of things going on here, from uneven skintone, to my highly visible pores, to my various large, crater-like chicken pox scars (which I actually quite like). Also, fun fact, I have a dimple.

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I always start my makeup with my eyeshadow, because I have a penchant for getting it all over my undereye area. I had a very hard time taking a picture of it, this is the best I got. I always start with an eye primer, because I have greasy, crease-y eyes. (I’ll be listing all the specific products at the end of the post!) Once my primer is down, I put a shadow that’s close to my skintone all over my lid, up to my browbone. Then I blend whatever dark color I’m using into my crease using a blending brush, and use a flat brush to pat a lighter color onto my lid. Here I’ve used a purpley color and a orangey glittery color from the nerdy indie (and vegan/cruelty free!) makeup brand Shiro Cosmetics, which I’ve been a fan of since they started!

If this looks kind of like a mess, it is. Not only am I not the greatest at blending, but the bristles at the tip of my crease brush somehow became fanned out a bit at the end the lat time I washed it so it’s no longer as precise as I’d like. But whatever, when my eyes were open, it didn’t look like quite as much of a disaster, lol. Often I do winged liner as well (although not so often anymore), but I’m glad I didn’t go for it here because even though I’ve applied it hundreds of times, it still can go very hit or miss (as I’m sure you know if you’ve got any experience with winged liner).

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Next is my face base! I start with a primer, trying to fill in my pores so they don’t show so much once I put on the foundation (which never quite works as well as I want, despite using a product which is supposed to be helpful in that regard). I’ve never found a foundation that I’m 100% satisfied with, but the one I’m wearing here is the closest I’ve got. It’s slightly the wrong shade for me, especially since I’ve got just the sliiiightest bit of summer color, but it doesn’t look nearly as off once I put my blush, etc. on top. There’s a bit of concealer under my eyes. Usually I don’t have dark looking undereye circles, but once I’ve evened everything else out with foundation, they appear, so I smear something over them even though I know it will crease horribly before the day is done, lol. I’ve also got my setting powder on — as a greasy girl, it is required if I want my makeup to look alright for a long period of time.

I apply my foundation with a makeup sponge, usually a Beautyblender, but the Real Techniques ones are nice as well. (I keep trying foundation brushes, but they tend to make the makeup SUPER visible in my pores. Not sure if that’s my skill or just the nature of the tool.) I press my powder into my forehead, undereyes, nose, and chin with the flat part of a Real Techniques sponge and then use a large flat fluffy brush to sweep away any extra and apply powder to the rest of my face.

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Here I’ve added my eyebrows, blush, and highlighter. I’ve never groomed my eyebrows, as I’ve been lucky enough to have brows that grow in a way that doesn’t make me self conscious. When I first got into makeup, I didn’t put makeup on them at all, but I was subscribed to Birchbox at the time, and they sent me a brow pencil, and when I tried it with my makeup I had a moment of “oh. maybe I should be doing this.” My eyebrows are relatively light, so they tend to get a little lost when I do a full makeup, especially if I accidentally get foundation on them. Brow pencil prevents me from looking eyebrow-less. I don’t fill them super thickly like the beauty gurus do, I just lightly shade them and hope for the best (you’re probably noticing this is a theme with my makeup application, lol).

I’ve tried to learn contouring, but I just can’t get the hang of it, so I stick to blush and highlight, both of which get applied in accidental abundance.

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My final steps are finishing/setting spray, mascara, and lipstick. The finishing spray helps my makeup survive the oil factory that is my face for just a little longer. I wait until after that to do my mascara, as I had a number of incidents where the spray would re-wet the mascara, and then I’d wind up with smudges under my eyes. Very annoying! I do my lipstick very slowly and carefully, and I prefer drier formulas because I don’t understand lipliner. Even if I use it, I still have wound up with feathering and smudging, so I’ve decided that super creamy lipsticks just aren’t for me.IMG_2284.JPG

So that’s the finished look! I took a whole bunch of photos in a couple of different tops, but I’m not actually sure if I’m going to use them for my Twitter or anything. This is not my best, most successful makeup application, and I’m a little afraid someone might zoom in and notice that, lol. I know I shouldn’t give a damn, but if I’m creating “promotional” photos, I want to put my best foot forward.

Despite my mixed feelings about this makeup, however, I still wanted to share these photos to show that even if things come out wonky, as long as you have fun doing your makeup, it’s fine! The great thing about makeup is that it washes off, and you can always try again!

flatlayfinal.jpgI think this is my first proper flatlay? Anyway, here’s the massive list of everything I put on my face, with comments where I feel one is needed. (As usual, none of this is #spon, I just wanna let y’all know where to get the good stuff!)

  1. NARS Blush in the shade Orgasm
  2. Anastasia Beverly Hills Perfect Brow Pencil in Medium BrownI use the spoolie end to brush product out of my brows before lightly coloring them in.
  3. Shiro Cosmetics Highlighter in Siren SongAs of this post, it’s on sale because it’s being discontinued, so scoop it up quick if you want it!
  4. BeautyblenderThis is the Nude one, I got it in a gift set but they sell it individually as well. I cut it in half because a beauty YouTuber suggested it, and it’s kind of old anyway, but I find it doesn’t help my application much and actually makes it harder to hold.
  5. Real Techniques Miracle Complexion SpongeI actually don’t like this for foundation as much as the BB, but I like the flat end for pressing powder in really well.
  6. Tarte Rainforest of the Sea sprayUsed this as a setting spray here because I looked a little powdery, and this one helps relax that a little. Smells nice, somewhat citrusy!
  7. Rimmel Stay Matte Pressed Powder in TransparentMy current favorite setting powder, in case you couldn’t tell from the fact I’m hitting pan. I use this translucent one so I don’t have to worry about it clashing with my foundation. Nice applied with sponge or brush.
  8. Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Concealer in BrighteningThis can go on hit or miss for me. I actually experimented with mixing it with #14 in this look and it turned out kind of well!
  9. e.l.f. Powder BrushUsed for translucent powder. The flat top lets me press things in, but it’s still big/fluffy enough to sweep stuff around.
  10. I’m not sure I’ve found the exact brush because it’s got no name printed on it, but the e.l.f. Complexion Brush looks pretty close to it. I use it for blush!
  11. e.l.f. Blush BrushI actually use this for highlighter. It’s a relatively flat brush, so I put the product one of the sides and sweep it over my cheekbones. 
  12. From left to right: e.l.f. Blending Eye Brush, Eyeshadow “C” Brush, and Eyeshadow Brush. The blender is self-explanatory, the “C” was used to put my neutral base on over my eye primer, the plain eyeshadow brush was used for the glitter shadow, to keep the other flat one clean for mattes in the future.
  13. Bite Beauty Matte Creme Lip Crayon in the shade Liquorice:  I -love- this shade, and the formula wears well. They also have this shade in their Amuse Bouche lipsticks, which is where I discovered it first, but god those lipsticks are SO smudgy!
  14. This concealer is from Target’s Sonia Kashuk line, but when I tried to find a link I discovered that the brand is no longer selling cosmetics and is only selling brushes now. So I can’t provide a link, sorry!
  15. Loreal Voluminous Waterproof Mascara in BlackThis is an old favorite of mine that I recently returned to when I realized the mascara I’d been using was probably well past expired and also discontinued. It’s still a good product. I buy waterproof because otherwise I get under eye smudges through the day because of my greasy face.
  16. This is a tiny little sampler palette I got in a Smashbox Try It Kit a long time ago — so long in fact that they no longer sell that particular kit. I haven’t tried other shadows from their brand, but these three are quality, and in this look I used the lightest one as the neutral base over my eye primer. 
  17. Shiro Cosmetics Eyeshadow in Yzma’s Essence of LlamaShiro shadows can be tricky to work with because they’re all loose pigments, but they’re definitely worth getting used to. This one has a nice shift — it’s purpley if you blend it like I did here, but if you pat it on it has a bronze cast. 
  18. Shiro Cosmetics Eyeshadow in Wizard WheezesThis one from Shiro’s Potter themed collection can be quite messy to work with because it is largely just glitter. If you sweep it on it’s quite sheer, but if you really work and pat a few layers on a nice orange/copper color develops.
  19. Dr. Brandt Pores No More primerA favorite primer of mine, because when I get it right it fills in my pores so the makeup sits nicely on top instead of revealing all of them. Also supposed to be good for oil control, but I’m not so sold on that.
  20. Loreal Infallible Total Cover foundation in the shade 301 Classic IvoryThe only foundation that I’ve found consistently gives me a look I’m happy about. There’s probably a foundation out there that’ll give me a look I’m even happier about, but I’m too lazy to look for it. This can cling to dry spots rather badly, so make sure you exfoliate and moisturize first!
  21. Smashbox 24 Hour Photo Finish eye primer: I forgot to include this in the flatlay because I wanted you to know I’m a human being. My favorite eye primer, and I’ve tried a lot of them in my quest for eyeshadow that goes a long time without creasing!

 

Ariel Nendoroid!

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Recently, I was finally able to receive my Christmas present from my friend T! They preordered this Nendoroid figure for me, it finally released in March (or April?), and by the time the post office stopped fucking around (as they are wont to do with T’s packages) and it arrived, it was May.

Nendoroids are figures of pop culture characters manufactured by the Good Smile Company. Over the years they’ve released figures from anime and manga, as well as video games and movies. Nendoroids aren’t the only type of figure Good Smile makes — what makes them unique are their big heads, tiny bodies, and overall kawaii/chibi/cutesy look. Also, they come with a ton of alternate body parts (but are not the only figures on the market that do).

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I’ve been aware of Nendoroids over the years, but haven’t purchased any for myself because all the little parts seemed such a fuss, and I knew I would put it in one pose and leave it that way forever. But T spotted the announcement of this one in the fall and thought I would love it, and I do! She’s very cute, and I was excited to see the little dinglehopper (fork) in the box. I immediately set about putting together a pose that used it.

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Disappointingly, I found that even once I sorted out which hand was for the dinglehopper, it didn’t stay in the hand very well. I also found that sometimes when I was manipulating the figure, the tails would pop out of the slot easily. Additionally, it could be difficult to get the peg into her back. The top of the peg actually comes off of the the rest of the blue arm that she’s attached to, and that happened to me a lot as I was trying to get the blue arm situated. That big head of hers is heavy, and it was a little tricky to keep things balanced on the base. This isn’t an issue that all Nendos have — Ariel is made to look as if she’s swimming, but many of the other characters just stand on the base (which is usually clear, but, again, we’re swimming here). But, she is very cute!

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I took this shot to demonstrate how to change the face plate. You just slide the front of her her hair out of the pegholes and then slide the face off in a similar fashion. Here you can also see where the peg keeping her up enters her back. It’s a little rough to get it in there under her hair. The back of her hair actually comes off as well, and when I first inserted the peg, I found it easier to do with the hair off.

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Another arrangement of the parts. I imagine that she’s fleeing from Flounder and Sebastian while on a mission to do something incredibly headstrong and foolhardy, lol. This one was hard to achieve, though. The pole holding her up is made of two parts that curve in the same direction and putting her so far forward made the whole base want to tip over. It took very precise positioning of the curves to get this shot.

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Here’s a close up of Flounder and Sebastian. They are…not the best. Sebastian looks sort of okay, but Flounder looks a little off. (Or is that just me?) Their posts are also a little flimsy and awkward. I kept accidentally popping them apart at the hinge while putting the pegs into the holes, which were a tight fit. This is the same pose as the previous picture, and you can also see a little bit of the tricky curves of the post holding Ariel up that I just mentioned.

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She also has a pair of arms that is specifically for holding Flounder. Maybe Sebastian would fit too? I didn’t try it because it looked like it wouldn’t work as well.

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This is the final pose I settled on, the one that she will now stay in for the rest of her days. I think I would get another Nendoroid or two in the future if they made any characters that I was really really interested in. (For instance, if they ever make Seto Kaiba, they will immediately have all of my money.) But despite the fact that she is really cute, I’m not totally sure I would recommend this figure to just anyone because of struggles I had that are specific to this particular figure.

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There wasn’t really a good place to mention it above, but there is such good attention to detail with this line of figures, even the interior of the box was beautiful. It would be a nice display backdrop for the figure if I had the space for that, but instead I recycled it. The figure has really good attention to detail and quality throughout this figure. So, again, I would recommend checking out other Nendoroids if  you think you’d be interested, but, again, I don’t know if I would recommend this one.

All the same, Good Smile has links to places to buy this figure on the product page for her, so check it out if you want to!

Summer Has Arrived

At the end of the day when I enter the lobby of the building where I work, I can feel some of the heat while I’m still a couple of yards from the revolving door. I push through, freeing myself from my air conditioned office prison, and for the first minute or so the heat is a refreshing contrast. But by the time I’ve crossed the courtyard and properly entered the parking lot, I’m wilting. Halfway across the asphalt that separates me and my car, I feel sweat pooling on my forehead, on my upper lip, under my arms.

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All of the photos in this post are from more pleasant summer times than the sticky week I’m currently enduring. Here’s the first Dippin Dots I ever had, taken at Six Flags in 2009.

I make it to the car and haul myself inside, desperately turning the key in the ignition as quickly as possible so I can roll down the windows. I feel blood rushing to my face and the sensation of all my pores opening up like I’ve just steamed them for a skincare treatment. The breeze from driving with the windows open calms my heat borne agitation (the AC is reserved for only the hottest of days, or when it rains).

I get home, and do I get to go inside where it’s cooler? Not yet — I have the task of pulling the rest of the family cars into our long narrow driveway once mine (the last to leave in the morning) is properly situated at in the back of the property. My brother’s car is black, with a black vinyl interior. Even if he remembers to crack the windows and park in the shade, I feel like I am sitting in hell.

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Here’s a weird baby head that was on one of the carousel horses in Dorney Park. This was the second carousel, way in the back of the park, that played hilariously out of tune music. Taken 2010.

Once that’s done, I go inside and eat dinner before going up to my room and cranking on my big boxfan. Last summer I successfully shunned the window air conditioner on the floor of the spare room that has my name on it, as it dries me up inside and out, usually giving me a cold. Hopefully this year I shall remain strong again. I’m usually wearing long pants or a cardigan in the interest of being office appropriate, and I curse them as I peel the sweaty cloth from my body. I flop down on my bed in my undergarments and let the cool air of the fan blow over my sticky skin.

Yes, I hate being cold. But I hate the heat even more. When it’s cold you can put on a sweater or grab another blanket. But when it’s hot, you can remove all of your garments and still be miserable, and I am absolutely not about that life.

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A beautiful view from the fortress of Wulzberg in Germany. Taken in 2012.